Episode 16

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13th Nov 2023

EP. 016 - Mitzi Starkweather - Creating an Unconditional Life

Matt Stagliano sits down with Mitzi Starkweather, a remarkable portrait photographer and educator from Missouri, to explore the importance of raw, authentic connections in photography and life. Their conversation delves into Mitzi's journey as a cancer survivor and how it has shaped her approach to self-value and connection with others. Mitzi shares her insights on navigating the challenges of self-doubt and societal expectations while emphasizing the power of being true to oneself. The discussion also highlights her new Raw Portraits Course, which focuses on creating meaningful interactions with clients. As they reflect on their experiences, both Matt and Mitzi inspire listeners to embrace their individuality and foster genuine relationships in their creative endeavors. For more information about Mitzi's work and her course, visit her website at http://mitzistarkweather.com or follow her on social media @mitzistarkweather.

"We've been friends for a few years now and I am still inspired by Mitzi every single day. We've had long conversations about the essence of connecting with clients in the past, but this conversation allowed us to go a little deeper and truly get to know what drives Mitzi to value raw, authentic connections."

The conversation between Matt Stagliano and Mitzi Starkweather weaves through the intricate tapestry of personal growth, authenticity, and the art of photography. Mitzi, a seasoned portrait photographer from Missouri, shares her transformative journey through various life challenges, including her battle with cancer and the joys of motherhood. These experiences have shaped her understanding of connection and self-acceptance, driving her to develop the Raw Portraits Course aimed at helping others embrace their true selves in front of the camera.

As they discuss the essence of capturing genuine moments, Mitzi emphasizes that photography is about more than just taking pictures; it is about creating an environment where subjects feel safe to express their individuality. The episode highlights the importance of vulnerability, not only in art but in all aspects of life. Mitzi’s insights into how she has learned to embrace her strengths as a connector resonate deeply, encouraging listeners to reflect on their own relationships and interactions. The discussion also touches on the significance of boundaries and self-care, particularly in the context of balancing a creative career with personal responsibilities.

Matt and Mitzi’s dialogue culminates in a broader conversation about the cultural shift towards authenticity in recent years, especially in the wake of the pandemic. This shift has sparked a desire for deeper connections, prompting individuals to seek out more meaningful interactions. The episode serves as a call to action for listeners to embrace their uniqueness and prioritize genuine relationships. Mitzi’s journey and teachings are a testament to the power of self-love and acceptance, reminding us that the most profound connections often begin with being true to oneself.

Takeaways:

  • Mitzi Starkweather emphasizes the importance of connecting authentically with clients through photography.
  • The Raw Portraits Course encourages photographers to embrace their unique voice and creativity.
  • Mitzi's journey as a cancer survivor shaped her understanding of self-worth and authenticity.
  • The shift towards authenticity in society allows for deeper connections between individuals.
  • Self-awareness and self-acceptance are crucial components in fostering genuine relationships.
  • Mitzi believes that true connection stems from curiosity and openness with others.

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Transcript
Host:

Hi there and welcome back.

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This is episode 16 of Generator, which I'm calling Creating an Unconditional Life.

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My guest this week is Mitzi Starkweather.

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Now Mitzi is a portrait photographer based in Missouri and she is also a mother.

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She is a cancer survivor, she is an educator, she is a speaker.

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She is a lot of things to a lot of people.

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But in a word, Mitzi is remarkable.

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You know, I've wanted to have this conversation with Mitzi for about a year and the timing finally worked out and it's great because she's just about to launch her newest course called the Raw Portraits course.

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So we'll talk about that, we'll talk about a lot of other things, a lot of self value, a lot of self love, a lot of our own intricacies in how we work in our relationships and how we work with others.

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Mitzi truly is one of a kind and I know you're going to enjoy this.

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So let's get on with the show with Mitzi Starkweather.

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I had some old coffee, I didn't feel like heating it up so I threw a sugar free cocoa mix in here.

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And now I've got kind of like a cold chocolate latte thing which if I get through, great.

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If I don't, we'll switch to a beer that I have in front of me.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So it's like, wow, that sounds terrible.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I would go straight for the beer but I'm drinking a the honey vanilla chamomile tea.

Host:

See, you know, I've got to move to tea because one, I know it's better for me and two, because I drink so much caffeine, I think it has eaten through most of my.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, I drink a lot of caffeine too.

Mitzi Starkweather:

This is just like in the afternoon when my stomach is like upset from all the caffeine, then I go to chamomile or peppermint tea.

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Well, thank you for being here in our various states of hydration.

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I have wanted to talk to you for so long about everything.

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And I know we have to try to condense this to an hour or thereabouts, an hour a day, a week, I don't know however long this conversation is going to last.

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I was thinking the other day as I was kind of preparing for this, I was like, I feel like I've known Mitzi forever.

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hat I met you and was it WPPI:

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It was me and you and Kat and Johnny and we were.

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Was it:

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Wow, really?

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Since then, like being able to watch you grow and grow and grow and set goals and achieve them.

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Set goals and achieve them.

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I love talking about that.

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But give Everybody just the 30,000foot view of who you are and where you're located, all the basic stuff.

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I'll take care of some of it in the preamble, but I want to hear what you have to say.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah, so.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Well, my name is Mitzi Starkweather, and I am a working portrait photographer.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I've had a studio right in the center of the country in southwest Missouri for 10 years, and I live in a pretty small town.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I have a little family.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We're all supported by my business.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And my husband, Jordan did work with me for a few years.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then in:

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And then I went into the business, you know, by myself.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I had to find other people to help me because I realized how much he did when he worked with me whenever he was no longer there.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So really, in the last few years, we've had a lot of life changes and just a lot of, like, pivoting and then shifting this and getting through this.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And a lot of things have happened.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But honestly, like, I just love to connect with people on the other side of my camera.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I love to connect with other photographers, especially through teaching and going to conferences and dreaming together.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But also, I love movies.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that's where I spend a lot of my time is at my local cinema, watching movies with my friends on the Internet and at our house and all kinds of stuff.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So really, I joke with the owners of our local cinema that, like, I work so I can just come here as much as I want.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, because they also have the best cafe in the area and I eat there all the time.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So it's like.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I don't know.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I just love.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I love my little community.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I love that my house is five minutes from my downtown studio.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And yeah, it's.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's small and simple in some ways, but at the same time, it's like looking back, I see that I've kind of crafted exactly what I need and what I want.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm a very creative person, but I need my space.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, I need my routine and I need my, you know, studio to be set up a certain way, and I need all those things.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then from there I can just kind of make whatever I want.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And yeah, I love to outsource a lot of things.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I don't want to do.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And in that capacity I like to work with those people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But I also love being self employed and not having a boss because I don't do well with people telling me what to do.

Host:

I feel the same way.

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Getting out of corporate, I never thought I'd be my own boss.

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And it's been the greatest thing and simultaneously the most stressful, anxiety inducing, panic inducing thing I've ever done.

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And it's only been going on about 10 years.

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Right, so but you've been doing this for about 10 years too.

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Right?

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And I think one of the things that I've noticed and you, you touched on it there was your ability to connect.

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I've seen you do it time and time again, not only from when we met, but just seeing you at the self value workshop, seeing you with other photographers, seeing you in silence, sitting alone and someone coming up and talk to you.

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The instantaneous connection that you have with folks, including myself, is phenomenal.

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I don't see that a lot and I see it brought into your photography and now the raw portraits course as well, where that connection is stressed so much.

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Has that always come easily to you or has it been something that you've had to work at?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, that's such a good question.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I think that the biggest journey of my adult life has been unlearning everything that I thought was wrong about me as a child and an awkward teen and realizing that that connection ability that I have with people is my superpower and I've never been.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Okay, so you know, Cliftonstrengths.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Are you familiar with that?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So there's like those 39 or 40 things.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Okay.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Literally my lowest one.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So my, my greatest, my, as Terry would say, my least strong strength is woo, win over others.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Okay.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That is the bottom of my cliftonstrengths, which is kind of funny when you think about it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

However, my number one is relator.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I can find a point of connection with anyone I meet.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that is definitely my strength as, you know, a portrait photographer and coach and stuff like that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

What I had to kind of unlearn was that all the rules, like especially professional rules and social rules and all this that I tried so hard to change myself and the mold I tried to fit into for most of my twenties was actually not the way I connected with people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I remember there was this time, I think it was in junior high, I had this friend.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I didn't have a lot of friends at school.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I usually have like several really close ones at a time and I had this one Friend who we hung out.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then, you know, once we hit junior high, she got really popular because she was, like, tall, skinny, blonde, and great with people, and all the boys liked her.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So she started to get more popular.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I remember there was this time when I think I, like, wrote her a letter saying, like, everything that I thought was so great about her and she didn't have a positive response to it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I remember, like, she thought it was weird.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that's kind of the.

Mitzi Starkweather:

The thing that I had to heal from and then learn how to embrace as an adult was like, no.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Meeting someone, having a meaningful connection with them and then speaking truth to them is something people aren't used to.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's kind of disarming for some people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But I've also learned that, like, I have to be invited in for that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's not really, like, an unsolicited thing that, you know, everyone's ready to hear.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So, yeah, it's just been learning how to find my voice, how to trust my gut, how to, you know, pick up on.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because, like, your body's always telling you who's a safe person, who's not who, you know, it's just.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We talk about attraction like, we talk about vibration, we talk about.

Mitzi Starkweather:

There's all these different ways we talk about it, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

But it's like when you're in a room with certain people, there are some people you gravitate more towards and other people you don't like.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it could be the different people at different times, like, for a million different reasons, but just really listening to that and then also listening to myself and knowing when I need to withdraw because my time with myself is so important.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I become a very annoying, toxic, negative person when I don't get enough of that, because I start to try to get it from everyone else.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I've learned, like, that doesn't work.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So, yeah, just, like, learning what my strengths are, leaning into those, and then just setting really good boundaries in my life so that when those connecting times are what they need to be, I'm able to show up fully.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I remember that specific wppi that was my first conference post, pandemic and everything.

Mitzi Starkweather:

to one since Portrait Masters:

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then, you know,:

Mitzi Starkweather:

I had a baby.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, there was all this different life change and all this stuff happened and rock my world.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then when I went to wppi, I realized, like, wow, this is my first time at a conference where I had very different personal boundaries.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I spent the whole first day at the.

Mitzi Starkweather:

In Vegas, when I flew in in the morning, purposely by myself in the hotel room, getting ready for hours, just getting ready, kind of meditating on that, picking out an outfit.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I like doing my makeup, thinking about, you know, how the night was going to go, who I was going to meet.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, in the past, I would have been like, okay, I'm in Vegas.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I got to make the most of this.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I got to go see this.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I got to go force myself into this social situation.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I was like, no, now I know, like, I understand what my capacity is.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so it was really cool to be at that conference and see those differences that I had made.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then, yeah, when I went to the Portrait Masters happy hour and I got to meet you, and I got to meet, you know, Terry for the first time and, like, all these people who I've known online, it was so cool because I just felt like, oh, I'm just going to go see my friends.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I just haven't met them in real life yet.

Host:

Right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I remember.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I think it was.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Remember when we waited in the world's longest mojito line that night we were with, like, Cat and Johnny, just handcrafting each mojito.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, oh, man, they just took forever on those, huh?

Mitzi Starkweather:

But anyway, that was really fun because it was one of those first times that I was like, I'm gonna find my people and I'm gonna hang out with them.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it was.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It was really, really cool.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I think that the way that we connect with people is something we have to learn.

Host:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's something where I think it's easy for us to try to copy how some people do it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then when we get frustrated because it doesn't work the way that they did it, and it's like, no, you got to find a way that works for you, because we all have different strengths.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so it's like what Terri told me when she did my CliftonStrengths assessment.

Mitzi Starkweather:

She's like, yeah, so when you go to a networking event and you don't know anyone there, it's probably good if you have someone with you who has win over others high in their strengths.

Host:

Right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like just learning that information and then playing towards your strengths and then finding other people to help you where you're not strong.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that has been absolutely life changing.

Host:

You know, I know you've heard Sue Bryce say it in the.

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In the self value workshops.

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You know, I'm not Broke.

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And I just, I come with instructions, right.

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And it takes forever for us to learn what our own instructions are and write that manual for other people.

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I know me growing up, I was a people pleaser.

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I don't know if you were, but kind of trying to be the, the outgoing, you know, well, spoken person that everybody wanted me to be.

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And I thought I had to act a certain way.

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And when you had just mentioned that, you know, doing what you thought people wanted you to be or that was really powerful because it wasn't until, I don't know, the past four or five years that I really started taking some of these masks off myself.

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And I realized that as introverted as I am, needing that solo time like you had in Vegas, right.

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I do the same thing.

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I get up at 5 in the morning and I'll go to a coffee shop and I'll sit there for two hours by myself, knowing that I'll be peopling the rest of the day.

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Right.

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But I find by taking some of those masks off and being able to just kind of understand how I work, therefore now I can explain it to other people.

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Because you're basically saying, hey, you want to know how to interact with me?

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Just read this short 42 page document that I have with me so you can understand how I work.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right.

Host:

But understanding like that it's okay to just be you, not live up to other people's expectations.

Host:

That was a big sea change for me.

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And it sounds like through all the different pivots you called them, all the different pivots you've gone through over the past couple of years, that that came probably much faster for you than it has for some other people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Anyone who faces like their mortality and that's, I mean cancer is one of the most common ways these days.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's been huge because it just makes everything so clear to you.

Host:

Sure.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And also I just have so much less capacity than I ever have.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, yeah, I have a toddler now and yeah, I work, but I'm not like, okay, see, eight to five every day and like, no, I'm involved in his life.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like I, I get to have a flexible schedule.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I love hanging out with him.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like this morning we took an hour long walk just in the leaves with our dog.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I bought him this little camera for his third birthday last week.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And he's loving it, which is great, cause I'm trying not to like push it on him, but I'm like, hey, I got you this camera.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He's everything.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

God.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So it's Just this little.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I mean, it's probably like.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's like the quality of those cameras we used in like the late aughts, you know, just one of those little.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And he's just taking pictures of everything.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And we just spent an hour this morning on this beautiful day.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He's just taking pictures and he's like, we're discovering, you know, we're just discovering things and it's like, that's so great.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So anyway, I.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That time is so precious to me because it goes so fast and I'm like, I have these things that are important to me and I have less capacity than I ever have.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Also because I'm doing hormone therapy for my breast cancer treatment that I'm only one year down out of 10.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's exhausting because it kind of makes me feel like I'm in menopause.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Not all the way, but like part way.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It has all these weird side effects.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So it's always like effing with my horn.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Turns out hormones are very important and like, my memory is not as good as it used to be.

Mitzi Starkweather:

My energy level is lower than it's ever been.

Mitzi Starkweather:

If I don't do yoga a couple times a week, like, my body just hurts and so it's forced me to like, take care of myself.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I'm only just turned 33 and I'm like, okay, my body feels a lot older than that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But there's a reason I think a lot of people don't start yoga till they're 50 or don't, you know, start eating like nourishing whole food until they're in their 40s and 50s is because it catches up with you and you could feel a difference.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I've kind of just taken this as like a gift of like, okay, no, I just need to be super intentional about how I love myself every day.

Mitzi Starkweather:

How I show up for myself so that I have the capacity for what I truly want.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Work.

Mitzi Starkweather:

The work that I do, the things I create is part of that and I have to have capacity for that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But like, I gotta have capacity for my family and for, you know, just my life.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because, like, yeah, we gotta make money.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I guess nothing really makes you think about like, why you go to work.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, okay, if there's a three year old who you are their entire world and they look at you in the eyes one morning and you're like, all right, bud, I gotta go to work.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And they go, why?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, what do you say?

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know, and my, my son asked me that a few months ago.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He's like, why?

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I said, well, we have to have money to buy things, you know, like our house.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And like, when we go to the store and our food, you know, we have to have money, so you have to work to make money.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And he's like, why?

Mitzi Starkweather:

And, you know, he's in his why era.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Absolutely.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I'm explaining it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But what stuck with me, especially that day, was I didn't say, so I can get external validation and feel good about myself, or so I can prove myself as the best photographer in the world to all my peers, or so I can finally make my parents proud of me because I've made a certain amount of money or whatever.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, there's all these reasons we do, but I'm like, no, really, it's just so, I think it was like a week later I said, all right, bud, I gotta go to work.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And he was like, oh, why?

Mitzi Starkweather:

To buy money?

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I was like, yeah, it's just like, because to him, it's just like, he's like, look at these cool rocks.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Do you want to hold them?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, look, they're so cool.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Look at these leaves.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Aren't they beautiful?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, and I just.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He's just so grounding.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, kids are so smart because they haven't been brainwashed yet, like we have, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so he has just taught me, like, how to find joy in just the most simple, beautiful things and how to be honest with myself.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because, like, what sue said in self value, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, your kids, like, they're not going to do it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You say they're going to do what you do.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it took, like, having this amazing little human for me to be like, wait, what do I want for him?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, I gotta want that for me first.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I have to show him.

Host:

I use the analogy, we've all got this pristine little hard drive when we're born, and then it gets filled up with either really good software or just a whole bunch of viruses and pop ups.

Host:

And I feel like you get to your 30s or 40s and the popups just really become annoying.

Host:

And that's when this self value stuff starts.

Host:

It's like defragging yourself, right?

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And you're just trying to clean out and clean out and clean out.

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And then you wind up with your.

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The way that your operating system works the best.

Host:

And it's so great that you're even taking into consideration how your son is growing up and what he wants and not, hey, here's what I did.

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Therefore, you have to do it.

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It's.

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What do you Think about that.

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How do you see the world?

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What are you going to change?

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How are you interpreting what is, you know, you're seeing, but understanding that he's got this hard drive that you can either fill up with your stuff or let him fill up with his own.

Host:

And I think that's a really interesting thing that you're doing.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Host:

Recognizing in yourself that, hey, it took me a while to get to this realization.

Host:

I wonder how long we'll take him to get there.

Host:

I wonder what it is that he's going to be in therapy in 20 years about.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, God.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Talking about all the things his mom said that messed him up.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, oh, it's gonna happen, obviously.

Host:

But these are the things that, you know, you can't.

Host:

You can't account for now.

Host:

But at least you're.

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You're in this point of self awareness where you can understand that he's being shaped right now.

Host:

These are some of those core foundational beliefs and, and ways of being.

Host:

And you have an influence over that.

Host:

And with that, it's that great responsibility.

Host:

Not being a parent myself, I get to go and kind of muck up what parents do with their kids.

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Ah, you don't need to listen to Mom.

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You don't need to listen to.

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I'm that guy.

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Right.

Host:

But it sounds.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But you're very.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You people, like, you are very important, too.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's something like, Dorian has a lot of aunties and uncles who don't have kids who adore him.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right?

Host:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that's something that I read recently.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's actually like part of our genetic hardwiring for kids to not listen to their parents once they get to, like, adolescence and to want to go to other trusted adults to ask their advice.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And evolutionarily, it keeps us from inbreeding.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's how you would get people to leave their family.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So it's like it's naturally something that we just do.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so, like, having other people in your life and like, I don't know, like, the little kids who are in my life too, you know, through different community things and stuff.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's like, I just.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I just treat every child like a person, and I.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I've never really had an issue with that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I don't talk to them differently, really.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I don't.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know, it's like they're little people, and I think we have so much to learn from them.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Just like they have stuff to learn from us.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that's also why I have friends and mentors who are also in their 50s and 60s and clients of all ages.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's like, you know, in the career that I'm in, it's so cool that I get to meet people of so many ages and walks of life.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I think it just shows me time and time again, like, how similar we all are.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And, like, we all have the same heartbeat, we all have the same struggles, we all have the same fears.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, we are so connected.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I think, especially in this day and age of like, the isolation which, you know, capitalism drives it because it ultimately makes more profit.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, the more isolated you can get people, the more they have to pay for everything, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so there are more single person homes now than there ever have been.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And like, because it is like, in that same way, though, we're all like flocking to social media and like, trying to connect to each other.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, we're all like, we're on there all the time.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's just, it's just such an interesting dichotomy.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, we can't help but, like, try to connect with the people around us.

Host:

Well, you saw that big in the pandemic, right?

Host:

You saw everybody move to clubhouse or whatever social app of choice, right?

Host:

Where you could talk to people and interact.

Host:

Because we were, we were being starved of that.

Host:

It was, you know, such scarcity where we could interact with other humans, right?

Host:

So we drove, we dove into that in that period, right?

Host:

You saw this cultural shift of, all right, it's okay to wear sweatpants, it's okay to work at home, it's okay to, you know, shower every other day.

Host:

Like, you know, it gave people a chance to just press pause and relax a little bit about themselves, about the relationships that they have, right?

Host:

If you're looking to decipher the culture we saw, people have, really bad things happen, right?

Host:

We all got a little bit darker, we all started thinking a little bit deeper.

Host:

But we also saw this connection and authenticity as a byproduct of all of it.

Host:

People came out as being themselves, right?

Host:

Absolutely.

Host:

And there was this mass acceptance of that.

Host:

And one of the things that you said in your new course, the Raw Portraits course, is that there's this cultural shift towards authenticity now.

Host:

And as much as that word is overused and, um, probably exploited, everything that you said is spot on.

Host:

There's this cultural shift to.

Host:

I can see through the bullshit of marketing.

Host:

I could see through.

Host:

I can see through the bullshit when I'm in a networking meeting and someone's just trying to make small talk.

Host:

I'm like, can we fast forward this a little Bit and skip to the good stuff.

Host:

We're seeing that shift and culturally we're moving as a group, really towards that.

Host:

I love that fact.

Host:

But I think you're finding that people are starting to finally let their guard down and be who they want to be.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yes.

Host:

Without regard to consequence.

Host:

Right.

Host:

This is me except me for who I am.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that's something that, that, like, I don't think we talk about enough is like, we are grieving.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We went through an incredibly traumatic event where we lost so many lives in this country.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And many of us who trusted our leadership question that maybe not for the first time, maybe some people for the first time, there was a huge shift that happened culturally.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And we don't know how to grieve in this country because it's not profitable.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Avoidance is profitable.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You can make a lot of money off of helping people get quick fixes so they don't have to feel their feelings.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So that's what we do.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But it's like, I mean, if you think about just other cultures, other time periods, like, it's such a imperialist, like, colonial thing to just not grieve.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's like stiff upper lip.

Mitzi Starkweather:

All right, get back to work tomorrow.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's where in other parts of the world, even present day, people will take a week to just wail when someone dies.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or, you know, there's all these different rituals.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's just a part of.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's a part of life because it just is.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I've heard some people kind of even use the word gaslighting.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like it's almost like our leadership, like kind of gaslit us, like, oh, it wasn't that bad.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And we're just like, no, it was.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But there are plenty of people who are like, fine to just believe that because, you know, they got to get up at 6 for work tomorrow and the kids are screaming and they have bills to pay and life is stressful and the check, the engine light has been on for three weeks and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

When my time of having my first and only child happened and then having my Achilles rupture the following year and then getting breast cancer right after that, like, I had to sit in the grief, like I had to, because I literally couldn't walk or use my arms for a period of time and I just had to feel it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I talked a lot about it in therapy.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I wrote a lot about it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I feel like that's what so many people have connected to as I've talked about this journey.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's not the fact that I had cancer.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Okay.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Whether you've had cancer or not, yeah, you can connect on that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But like, I think culturally we can all connect on the grief, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because like it's there and there's a reason everyone is so fucking exhausted right now.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Everyone is so tired.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And there's a reason we're all talking about boundaries all the time.

Mitzi Starkweather:

t have the capacity we had in:

Mitzi Starkweather:

On a given day or week or month, like, we just don't because so much of our capacity is taken up by all these other things and the news and the economy and all this other stuff going on.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so it's just like, some of, for some of the time it feels like I'm sitting back and I'm just kind of like watching everyone in the last couple years and I'm like, guys, just, just take a few days off and cry.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like I, it's gonna help so much.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Write it out, like, feel it.

Host:

I do it all the time.

Host:

Sit alone and cry.

Host:

Meaning.

Host:

And this is, this is, you know, I think you're so dead on accurate with the grief thing, but we only have so much capacity in our brains for this.

Host:

We're being shovel fed so much stuff of how our life is supposed to be and who we're supposed to be and who we're supposed to compare ourselves against that we don't have the chance to breathe or grieve or think about what we want or where we want to go.

Host:

Right.

Host:

We're inundated with stuff to look at and stuff to consume, which never gives us the time or inclination to stay clear and actually just stay in our own silence and protect that space.

Host:

Right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yes.

Host:

Through the, through the pandemic, we got so used to contacting each other constantly just to maintain some level of human connection that I think we all created this habit that we have to be even more connected, we have to be even more online.

Host:

And you know, I've said this a bunch, living where I live, which is not dissimilar from where you are, but living in a very remote location and being somewhat isolated, it was wonderful.

Host:

And, and I don't say that because like I thumb my nose at people like, haha, I live in the woods.

Host:

It's more like I didn't have that constant inundation of people talking about the news and people talking about issues all the time.

Host:

I just tuned it out and went into the woods with my dog and hung out and looked at trees, pictures and you know, found that balance to stay creative.

Host:

How are you finding where you live and balancing that inundation of content, of news, of information, and staying creative and raising a family and running a business.

Host:

How do you maintain your level of creativity when your brain is full of all this stuff?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, that's a really good question.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Well, one thing I have is my husband, Jordan is kind of my news and media curator.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I try not to take him for granted for that because it's like after a long day and I come home, it's like, we do dinner, put, you know, the kid to bed, everything.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We sit down and like, I'll be like, he'll be like, okay, how long till you have to go to bed?

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I can say whether it's like an hour or.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm like, I got like three hours or whatever.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He's like, all right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He pulls up, he's already been on letterboxd.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He's like, okay, I've got these three movies.

Mitzi Starkweather:

This one is.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Where are you feeling?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Especially in Halloween, I mean, in October.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So great.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He's like, okay, you feeling more gothic Hor forward tonight?

Mitzi Starkweather:

You feel more this cloud?

Mitzi Starkweather:

You want Giallo?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Are you feeling okay?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, you want this category?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Okay, you want the 74 minute movie or the 120 minute movie?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, seriously.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I'm just like, ah, that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So he does a lot of labor in that way.

Host:

I needed.

Host:

I needed Jordan in my life.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, man.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, you guys would head it off.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But yeah, so I.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That is super nice for.

Mitzi Starkweather:

For me as far as, you know, the things.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because those things fill me up and those things, you know, especially as a creative and a visual artist, it's like, love it, love it, love it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You gotta got to consume and create.

Mitzi Starkweather:

There has to be a balance, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

But also with the news, he keeps up on that really well.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And he kind of just tells me what he thinks I can handle at that time.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or like, if he starts talking, he's like, oh, you need to know this update.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'll be like, oh, wow.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or I'll be like, tell me more.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or some days I'm like, I don't have capacity for that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Thanks.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, glad to know what's happening.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So that is nice that, like, I.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I feel like I am informed, but there's definitely been times, especially when, like, cancer was kicking my ass, where I'm like, I do not care.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, I don't have the capacity to think about whatever is going on in the news right now or politics or anything.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, but I don't want to just, you know, it's not a position.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I want to hold because I want to have a real realistic view of the world.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So anyway, so he helps me with that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But I think one of the big things is like just on social media, like just consistently unfollowing things that don't make my life better or make me feel bigger.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, if it makes me feel smaller, I unfollow.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Okay.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Same with like groups of people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

If some group of people I've been hanging out with, or an activity I've been doing or a habit that I have, and one day it starts making me feel smaller and not bigger, then it's time for that to be done.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And obviously that's as you go through life seasonally, some things work for some seasons and not for others.

Host:

Can I just pause you there for a second?

Host:

I want you to explain that a little bit.

Host:

Making yourself feel smaller.

Host:

When you're looking at this, can you, can you open that up a little bit?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I always say if something makes me feel bigger.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So that was actually a Marie Forleo thing that I heard on a podcast like years ago.

Mitzi Starkweather:

She said when you are faced with a new opportunity or a new idea and you think about it and you feel scared, so you feel fear.

Mitzi Starkweather:

If you sit with it for a second and close your eyes and think about it, does that fear of that thing make you feel bigger or smaller?

Mitzi Starkweather:

If it makes you feel bigger, you go for it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

If it makes you feel smaller, don't.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So that really stuck with me and I kind of go with that from now on.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I think that in most situations, like you can pay attention, pay attention to what your body does.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You go, do you hunch down?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Do you hang your head?

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know, do you try to look smaller?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or can you stand proudly with your hands on your hips and take up space in that idea or that moment?

Mitzi Starkweather:

I had a moment.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It was about 12 years ago because it was right around the time I got engaged.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And yes, I was a child bride, it happened to work out.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But you know, I'm in the Midwest, this is how things are.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I got engaged when I was 20 and right around that time I realized that I was gluten intolerant.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so over like the next few months leading up to my wedding, I just lost like 25 pounds, like just effortlessly.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I'm like 5 foot 4.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So that was like pretty significant.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I remember I went home to visit and there was a relative visiting my parents house who saw me and they hadn't seen me in a while.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I remember I walked in the door and she saw me, and her face lit up and she smiled and she said, there's so much less of you.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's how she said it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's always stuck with me because she was praising me.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And at the time, I was like, yeah, I got skinnier.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Hello, I'm a woman.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's my job.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Be smaller.

Mitzi Starkweather:

No matter what you do in life as a woman, just get smaller.

Mitzi Starkweather:

friendly baby Shower said in:

Mitzi Starkweather:

Lovely person.

Mitzi Starkweather:

She's like, you're still so small.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You're eight months.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And she goes, you must be so relieved.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then a week later, I went to the doctor, or two weeks later, went back to the doctor.

Mitzi Starkweather:

They're like, oh, you're measuring a little small.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We need to induce.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I was afraid I was going to lose my baby, but I was praised for it, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because there's all these times, and I, as I've written about it and reflected in the last few years, I think about all the times I was praised for being small, and I think about the people who have praised me for being smaller, whether that's with my voice, with my body, with my ideas.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I don't listen to their advice anymore because I don't take advice from people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I don't want to be more like.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So if people are praising me when I go small, that's not really the people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I kind of think about that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I'm like, I want to be around people who encourage me to be bigger and encourage me to speak up louder.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it pushed me when, you know, it's like when you make one of those posts where you really pour your heart out.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I don't know if you ever have this happen and you post about it, and then you're just like, your heart's pounding and you're like, oh, my God, I can't believe I'm sharing this.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then, like, three people who you absolutely look up to and love like it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You're like, okay, I'm good, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because you're like, oh, no, they're.

Mitzi Starkweather:

They've got my back.

Mitzi Starkweather:

This friend is like, hell, yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And you're like, okay, and they've got your back.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And there's so many ways that that can happen in your life.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so, yeah, I just look toward being bigger and taking up space and just owning stuff.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that's the direction I want to go in my life, because I think there's plenty of things that are fine to do.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, our path isn't Necessarily good or bad, but it can be like big or small.

Host:

Have you ever felt when you're around people that make you feel bigger?

Host:

I love that feeling, right?

Host:

That creativity, that ambition, that drive for more.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like everyone at Self Value Workshop.

Host:

Yeah, like everyone at Self Value Workshop.

Host:

And I'll tell you what creeps in when I'm in, When I'm in company like that and I look around and I'm like, you're a rock star.

Host:

You're a rock star.

Host:

You're a mogul.

Host:

I realize I'm projecting a lot of my own insecurities on them, meaning I feel less than myself.

Host:

Not knowing their entire story, just through my observation.

Host:

They are this type of person.

Host:

They are successful, they are beautiful, They've never had a struggle in their life.

Host:

And all their children are golden haired and beautiful, right?

Host:

So I, I project these things out and I have to snap myself out of these fears of talking to people that are exactly the same as me, that are worth exactly the same as me from a humanity standpoint.

Host:

Right?

Host:

And that if I'm in that room, then I belong.

Host:

And it hasn't been that way my whole life of feeling bigger.

Host:

I've been, you know, taught to feel smaller.

Host:

Don't take up space, don't annoy anybody, don't be a bother, don't be in the way, right?

Host:

Be polite.

Host:

But then stand over here and don't talk.

Host:

You know, all of those things get ingrained in you so that you are feeling less than, more often than not.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Host:

So have you ever felt like when you're in these, these rooms with people that make you feel big, do you ever feel any of that, that fear or insecurity or am I the only weirdo here?

Mitzi Starkweather:

No.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh my God.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I think it's just been learning to accept that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's like you, you are the company you keep, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

And if you see, if you're consistently around, like people who you look up to, like, then you're probably on the right path, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, you don't have to like, prove yourself like you're doing it right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You don't have to change anything.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know, just keep moving toward that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And like you said, you get to this space where you're like way less judgmental of yourself, so you're way less judgmental of everyone else.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then you realize that, like, oh, I can, like, hold space for anyone, like whether, I don't know, they're talking to themselves on the street and look like they haven't showered for a long time, they're a human just like me.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or whether they have 2 million followers on TikTok.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Whatever.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, we're all just humans.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, I think the more we just lean into what lights us up and makes us feel big, the more we shine and, like, we just get better at what we do, and then it just helps everyone.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's how you help everyone.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's how you uplift humanity.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's how you, you know, encourage people to follow their true path.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You just do it for yourself first.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Easier said than done.

Host:

Totally.

Host:

Easier said than done.

Host:

You know, when I was at Portrait Masters this year, shocker, I was at a bar having a drink, and David Suh walked up.

Host:

And for those of you that don't know, David Suh is a photographer out of LA.

Host:

He's also become kind of TikTok famous because he's teaching people how to pose through TikTok videos.

Host:

And he's extraordinarily approachable, and there's this wonderful androgyny in his personality, and you never really know where he's coming from.

Host:

But that's the wonderful part of David.

Host:

But we happen to get talking.

Host:

And now this is a guy that has millions of followers, and he was relatively apprehensive about getting on stage in front of less than 500 people.

Host:

And I'm like, okay, so if he's feeling nervous, then he's human.

Host:

Oh, okay, he's human.

Host:

Then we're exactly alike.

Host:

Oh, okay.

Host:

Then I can relate to him at whatever level.

Host:

And I think, you know, it's being able to see that person, understand they have the same insecurities and fears and worries that we all have.

Host:

It puts you on this very even playing field and reduces any of that idolatry or deification that we have for people that we see online.

Host:

And we don't know, we think they're bigger than they are when they're really like us.

Host:

I think that's been one of the things that's allowed me to connect in the way that I have with certain folks.

Host:

And that is they're no better, no worse.

Host:

You're no better, no worse than them.

Host:

Just have a conversation and see where it goes.

Host:

And that has gotten me through more doors over the years, not being starstruck and just treating people like humans, you.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Know, really, it's like with little kids, it's the same thing, right?

Host:

Totally.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You can tell the people who, like, don't like kids, but then when a kid walks in the room and they want to act like they love kids, it's like, that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's like that energy where you're just like, it's okay.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I don't know.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm like, kids are people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I only snuggle my own kid.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, not even that much, really.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm not snuggly, but, like, other people's babies.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm like, no, that's good.

Mitzi Starkweather:

If you need me to hold your baby so you can go take a shower, I will.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But I'm not trying to, like, outsource.

Host:

It to Jordan, just outsource it to Georgia.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, yeah, I know.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He'll.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah, he'll play this.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Dogs, though.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, I'll play with your dog.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'll say.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But, yeah, like, I think that's where judgment comes in because I am such a recovering, like, judgmental high horse asshole.

Host:

Sing it, sister.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, my God.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I used to be so religious, too.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So it, like, had that all around it, like, the dominant religion of our country, too, you know?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Of course.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, I just thought I had all the answers about everything and everyone who didn't do it that way or said anything different, I was like, it's different, therefore it's wrong.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'll pray for you, you know.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like you said, though, it's the.

Mitzi Starkweather:

The idolatry and then the demonization of different people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Just two extremes, same idea.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because really all I was doing was I was seeing the people who I really looked up to and was like, oh, they're right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I want to be more like them, and I want to impress them and I want to get praise from them.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Then anyone who looked opposite of that, I was like, oh, they are so far.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know, they're so lost.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so I did this in, like.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I mean, I did it not just with the religion, though, but in, like, academia.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I did it with my photography career.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I did it with all these different things.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because really, what it came down to was I was just saying, actually, all validation must be external.

Mitzi Starkweather:

There can be no inner authority, no inner validation.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's all it was.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It was a lack of inner authority.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And so as I've learned about myself and spent time with myself and healed through different wounds and gone to a lot of therapy and also just found these practices in life that I can use to move.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Move through the emotions of life.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Grief, love, fear, all of it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

The more I can just be like, oh, things are what they are.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And the more.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Guess what?

Mitzi Starkweather:

My photography portfolio has gotten much more diverse.

Mitzi Starkweather:

At the same time, I wonder if there's a connection there.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And the way that I can connect with more and more people of different walks of life because it's like what Terry Hofford says.

Mitzi Starkweather:

There's no judgment and curiosity.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, we can just be curious about things.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I tell myself all the time, the mantra I started a few years ago was, I release the burden of judgment.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I, in this moment, like, if I found myself trying to, like, figure out what I really thought about someone or what I thought, I.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I said no.

Mitzi Starkweather:

In this moment, I am releasing the burden of having to judge them because it's just a burden on me.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Does that do anything for them?

Mitzi Starkweather:

No, it's just something I'm burdening myself with because it means I need to look in the mirror and think about myself for a minute, what I'm really going through.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's all it is.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm just choosing to see it in them and not me.

Mitzi Starkweather:

My life is so much better now.

Host:

I'm going to step back just a second.

Host:

You were talking about all validation being external.

Host:

I realized in that moment that what we're really talking about was conditional and unconditional love, that we're constantly putting conditions on our partner's love, on the people that we see.

Host:

I.

Host:

I think that that condition, the second that we place condition on what we're expecting from people.

Host:

Right.

Host:

I gave you this.

Host:

Therefore you have to give me something in return.

Host:

Well, maybe that's not the way that they live their life or believe.

Host:

Maybe they still have amazing gratitude in their heart for what you've given them and will repay it in their own way down the road.

Host:

But even the expectation of a repayment is putting conditions on that relationship.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Maybe they'll take it and run.

Host:

Right.

Host:

And they could.

Host:

Which you have to release yourself of and be like, yes, okay, I felt good doing the thing for that person.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah, that's it.

Host:

That's where my involvement ends.

Host:

Right.

Host:

And so when we're putting all of our expectations and need for external validation, where we're putting that on other people, we're robbing ourselves of so much.

Host:

We're robbing ourselves of the chance to get to know each other, meaning the ego in the soul.

Host:

Like we.

Host:

We don't get a chance to know ourselves.

Host:

You also mentioned, and I've said this in several other places, that the root of connection is curiosity.

Host:

And you said that you have to be curious first before you can connect to anybody in any situation.

Host:

And that's one thing that in all my conversations with you that I've had, one thing I always listen for.

Host:

I'll make a statement did they ask me a follow up question?

Host:

Are they truly curious about what it is that makes me me?

Host:

Or are they just waiting for me to stop talking, which will probably never happen, so that they can say something?

Host:

Curiosity is truly that root of connection.

Host:

I've seen this in conversations with you where you will ask follow up questions.

Host:

You are truly interested in holding space and being present for the person in front of you.

Host:

It shouldn't be rare, but it is.

Host:

Do you feel like people are holding space for each other better?

Host:

Do you feel like there's this.

Host:

We were talking earlier about cultural change, cultural change towards connection.

Host:

Not just authenticity, but connection with other people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Ooh, that's a really good question.

Host:

Because we can be authentic all day long, right?

Host:

But are we putting in the time and effort to see people for where they are?

Mitzi Starkweather:

The only thing that comes to mind.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm not sure why yet.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Maybe this has something to do with it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm thinking about how a couple weeks ago, several of us friends who we literally met, like through the Internet, we watch movies together on Discord and we've done it since the Pandemic.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So some of us met up in Chicago from like Salem, Massachusetts, from Kentucky, from Toronto, like, and then us from Missouri, like, we all just met up.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It was our first time hanging out in person and we had this amazing weekend together and we just hung out and we watched movies.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We played movie trivia games that I told them after.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I was like, you know, if I had played this game with any other group of people, I would have been like, man, I wish I was playing this with my friends from this, you know, this Discord chat.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, because.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it was so much fun.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I think too, like, I love movies because when you connect with someone about movies, you're just connecting over story, which that's what mankind has done for millennia, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like sitting around the campfire telling stories.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, this is.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Movies are just how we do it now because, you know, you got to pay for it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You got to pay for everything here.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And you know, we do everything on our own, but.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And yet we like all saw the Barbie movie and talked about it for weeks.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

So it's like, it keeps us all connected and the things that we.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I love hearing what people think about movies because it tells me so much about them.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Sure, right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So anyway, it was so cool to hang out with them and we just had a really, really great time.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm like, I was thinking about it later.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm like, without, you know, the pandemic and without finding that need for that community in that way.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, would this have even happened?

Mitzi Starkweather:

I don't.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I don't think it would have.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I don't know if that answers the question or not, but I think it came to my mind.

Host:

Yeah, I think it does.

Host:

I mean, there were, there were definitely things that came out of the pandemic where I know, certainly for me, I learned to connect with people in a different way.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like how?

Host:

So it's very much the person that I needed to meet you in person.

Host:

Before we could form any level of relationship.

Host:

I realized, you know, mainly because I've always been in this love hate relationship with being online.

Host:

I am just Gen X enough to know that the Internet sucks and that life existed before it.

Host:

I used to always make my relationships depend on the fact that I had to meet you in person.

Host:

And then I always felt more comfortable meeting people in person.

Host:

Switch that up around:

Host:

A lot of times when I'm in front of someone, you're.

Host:

You're relegated to X amount of time.

Host:

A small time period where, like we were together at wppi, we had a small amount of time together, whether that's a minute, an hour or a day.

Host:

Small amount of time.

Host:

With online relationships, it tends to be that you can get deeper, quicker and in shorter amounts of time and extend that time.

Host:

Kind of like we're doing here.

Host:

This could be an hour, it could be two hours, it could be, you know, six hours, doesn't matter.

Host:

I find that my connection to people by being able to do it virtually has strengthened being in front of people, if that makes sense.

Host:

So I went from, yeah, definitely being able to connect with people, not connect with people online.

Host:

Now I'm connecting with people online, which has only strengthened my ability to connect with people.

Host:

So when you walk into a network meeting, I don't feel that same.

Host:

Oh my God.

Host:

I just made eye contact with that person.

Host:

Do I need to go speak to them?

Host:

What am I going to say to them?

Host:

I don't like the way they look.

Host:

I don't like the way that I look.

Host:

I shouldn't be here.

Host:

I don't want to be here.

Host:

My socks, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yes.

Host:

Do you see how my mind works?

Host:

So now I don't fall into that.

Host:

And more about just being curious about what they do.

Host:

Why are you here?

Host:

Are you the bartender or do you have a small business that we can talk about?

Mitzi Starkweather:

What do you think happens when we die?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Tell me.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know, just really appropriate questions to ask.

Host:

People love getting into that sort of stuff.

Host:

Like, I will open with that.

Host:

And then they're either, like, they're all in and we're from the same tribe, or, all right.

Host:

Matt's left alone holding his drink.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or if they, like, laugh nervously and then start talking about sports, you're like, all right, moving on.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's great.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You just.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Quick pivot.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know, dude, when someone tells me that their favorite movie is Cool Runnings, I'm like, I know you.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I know everything about you.

Host:

That's such an odd poll.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So many.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's an astounding number of people will say their favorite movie is Cool Runnings.

Host:

That blows me.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And when someone says a movie I've never seen, I'm like, you have Discord.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Want to hang out?

Host:

I've never seen the Nightmare Before Christmas.

Host:

And I was talking to someone about this the other day.

Host:

They're like, wait a minute.

Host:

You've been on this planet for 50 years and you have not seen A Nightmare Before Christmas?

Host:

I was like, I have no idea what it's about.

Host:

I think it's a pumpkin guy and a blue girl.

Host:

Other than that, I have no idea what it's about.

Host:

We may have to jump on Discord because I feel like I've missed a good portion of my adult life by not being able to see this movie.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, my God.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I have some friends who, like, they watch the weirdest shit.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's cool, too, because.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Okay, we're also.

Mitzi Starkweather:

This kind of goes into what I.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Something you said earlier that made me think about, like, when you were talking about how, like, the.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Being online has, like, over the last few years, has evolved how you interact with people in real life.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, we're also at the stage now where we've had the Internet for, like, a decade.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, pretty much everyone has, like, like, available all the time.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Not just, you know, when you go in the computer room and connect.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know, like, my parents don't have.

Host:

A computer room, and they refer to it as the computer room.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, yeah, mine do, too.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But, yeah, it's like.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And we remember that, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

But it's like, we've all done this long enough now that it's, like, it's taking on a new role.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, it's because it's still the wild west of it in so many ways.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that was something that one of my students said when I did my live keynote for my Raw Portraits course this summer.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And he's a photographer in his 50s.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He's just retired.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, he's done this forever, and he teaches and stuff.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And he was like, you know, I think it's really interesting that you're bringing about this type of portrait session at this time when we're used to seeing pictures of ourselves.

Host:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because we've had these now long enough.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, most of us, except, you know, a few grandpas out there don't take selfies, like, you know, from a low angle anymore.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, we.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We understand, like, a decent selfie angle.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And like, you know, zoomers, they make fun of millennials like me for saying selfie.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I think that's so interesting because, like, it's like, it's just a picture.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, you know, that's like one of those cringy millennial things, even saying selfies.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I think it's just so interesting.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, we've had this now for so long.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We've been used to seeing pictures of ourselves for so long.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We've had filters for so long.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We've had these things.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's like this raw portrait session that I've been offering now and has been, like, wildly successful and really taken off.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And now I'm teaching other photographers how to do it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm like, yeah, like, seven, eight years ago.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That wasn't the time for this yet.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, it's just the next phase, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I was talking to my friend at lunch the other day.

Mitzi Starkweather:

She's.

Mitzi Starkweather:

She writes for different, like, blogs.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And she ended up.

Mitzi Starkweather:

She just went to Paris for six weeks to, like, eat at all these restaurants and write a restaurant guide.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, best job ever.

Mitzi Starkweather:

for several years and left in:

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then now this was her first time back, just like last month.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And she said it was really interesting, Mitzi.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because when I left Paris, the fashion, you know, French women, they don't normally, like, style their hair and do a full face of makeup, but that was never a thing.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But when I left Paris, she's like, it was still, like, a matching skirt with tights and, like, boots and a layered jacket and a collared shirt.

Mitzi Starkweather:

She's like, now, when I was just there, everyone just wears really nice sweatpants.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I laughed, and I was like, as I am by Mincey.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And we both laughed.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I said, no, really, it's all the same thing.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, it's all the strip down.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, but this is what we do culturally, right?

Mitzi Starkweather:

This is what it builds up.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It happens in literature, it happens in music, it happens in art.

Mitzi Starkweather:

We build up, build up, build up, build up, build up.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then it's just.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's like the crescendo and then the fall, and then we build it back up again.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I think the more we can accept that as creatives of, like, that's the creative process and that's what you're going to do.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And the moment when you think that you've done everything you can do, that's when you just need to flip it all upside down and fuck it up and do it wrong, because you're just getting started.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, it's time for the next thing now.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, that's what this time has been for me.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I don't know if I'd be here if everything that happened in the last couple years of my life hadn't happened, because it just kind of facilitated, like, this space and this, I don't know, being me being able to know myself well enough to, like, trust myself and know my processes and know, like, what I need and what I need to do.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's like, yeah, build up that inner authority so that I can say, like, oh, now that I know competently how to use, like, four lights and a setup, I'm going to do a project where I just use one.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Now that I've finally learned color balance, well, I'm just going to do black and white.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And guess what?

Mitzi Starkweather:

My lighting got way better.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, all these things happen because it just followed what I wanted to do next and how I wanted to connect with people next.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And yeah, it's like when you follow what you love and what's lighting you up, like, other people want to come along.

Mitzi Starkweather:

They care about it.

Host:

And that's.

Host:

That's what instantly drew me to what you were doing with the raw portraits is I feel like I've been kind of poking around the edges of this, trying to define my own voice for years, and then suddenly you.

Host:

You encapsulate everything into exactly what I was thinking I wanted to do, but I didn't because I have this neuro spicy brain.

Host:

And I overthink and I overthink and I overthink and I overthink.

Host:

You actually executed on the idea that you had, and you executed it immediately.

Host:

You learned to trust yourself in making those decisions.

Host:

At least from what I'm hearing that you got to this point where if it feels right, if it makes me feel bigger, I'm going to trust that no matter what the fear is and go forward with this course.

Host:

Even though I've done the four light setups and the color balance and all the stuff, I am going forward with this because it feels right to me, and it's where I want to go.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I think, Matt, the biggest thing I learned in that, what.

Mitzi Starkweather:

What the difference was, was not so.

Host:

It was.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah, it was trusting the inner authority, but it was also letting go of the result.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, I learned to just say, like.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because I'm a very type A person, I like to know a plan.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I gotta have a plan for everything.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or I'm just like, I can't relax.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I can't get into flow.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I can't.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I gotta know what the.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Where are the boundaries?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Where are the.

Mitzi Starkweather:

What's the direction?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Okay, now I can make stuff.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And like, with this project, it was going, I know the next step, so I'll take it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Okay?

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I trust that once this step is completed, I will know the one after that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And now tomorrow I'm flying to Phoenix because I'm going to photograph Sue Bryce on Thursday.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Do you think when I started this in January, I was like, you know what?

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm going to start this project, and then by before Thanksgiving, Sue Bryce is going to be like, hey, I want an essay.

Mitzi Starkweather:

No, like, that would never.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, I would have limited what this could have become so much if I had, like, sat down and be like, this is how it needs to be.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Let me go ahead and check online at what everyone else is doing.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Compare it to that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

See how it stacks up.

Mitzi Starkweather:

See how similar it is.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know, talk to the.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Get some validation from these different people.

Mitzi Starkweather:

No, like, it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

This never would have happened.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's like, that's what I've.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And the more you do it, the more you realize, like, oh, this is awesome.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then, like, you get cool results and your body feels good because you're happy and you're creating and you're in a space of love and not, like, fear.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And you're big and you're not small, and so you're just, like, moving and moving.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I remember I said I used that language to my therapist a few months ago.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I said, it's like running toward what you want.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And she was like, nancy, is it?

Mitzi Starkweather:

I was.

Mitzi Starkweather:

She's like, do you like running?

Mitzi Starkweather:

I was like, no, not at all.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I've never liked running.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And she's like, isn't it more like getting on a slip and slide?

Mitzi Starkweather:

I was like, yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's like, when you're on the slip and slide, why would you want to get off?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, you just keep going because it's fun.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's like, that's the space.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, that's the energy, and that's something where when I talked to my Beta group of Raw Portraits course students yesterday, I said like, when.

Mitzi Starkweather:

When I talk about finding the light that lights you up, it's like when you find that recipe that just makes you do a little dance.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And my sister, she actually teaches like dance therapy called Month of Movement.

Mitzi Starkweather:

It's phenomenal.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I've done like three month sessions with her over the years and it TR absolutely changed my life.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But she always talks about the happy food dance.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You eat and you like it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Anyone around you, you'll notice it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You do a little happy food dance because you love it and you don't even think about it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And everyone does it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Even people who say, oh, I could never dance, I can't dance.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But it's also why during my Raw Portrait sessions, I never use the word dance.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But people are moving a lot because it just freaks people out.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But we all know how to do it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You ever see a two year old when a song comes on?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh my gosh.

Mitzi Starkweather:

My son, like since before he could walk, like once he could just balance on something, he was dancing and he was like doing squats.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And we'd always say, shake your booty and like he would do it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And he is just the danciest little guy.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And when I photographed him for his 3 3rd birthday a few days ago, it was so cool because I got him in the studio and we didn't make a big deal about it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I hadn't even really planned.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I wasn't feeling super great that day.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But my husband was also sick.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But then our house cleaner was scheduled to come, so we had to like leave the house for two hours.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, let's just go in the studio.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So we go to the studio and then my son's like running around, he goes to the backdrop and I'm like, oh, yeah, it's your third birthday this week.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Maybe I should take some photos of you.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, literally that's where my head's at.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I pull out my light, I have my, you know, my as I am, like, just nice backdrop, set up, whatever.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And do you think I had to tell him to start dancing?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Do you think I had to tell him how to pose?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Do you think?

Mitzi Starkweather:

No, just start shooting.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I photographed him for like a few minutes and then I was like again feeling a little bit queasy, so I stopped.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But like, he would have kept going.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He was so into it and it was just so cool to watch him.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He wasn't, when I showed in the back of the camera, he'd be like, ooh, that's a good one.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because that's what I always say.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He didn't say, like, oh, my face looks fat.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or like, oh, that's not.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Or my hair is not good.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, he was just like, oh, that's a good one.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And then he was like.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Wanted to be camera.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, he's in his camera phase right now.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Just like.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So he's always going, rawr.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And one of the things I've always noticed about him in the last few months is anytime you get a camera out to take a photo, do you know how he poses?

Mitzi Starkweather:

Big.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He doesn't make himself smaller.

Mitzi Starkweather:

He makes himself bigger.

Host:

That's incredible.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I'm like, our bodies don't lie.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And like, you look at a child like, that's it.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's all it is.

Mitzi Starkweather:

When I saw.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I'm like, oh, we basically just did an as I am session.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I just didn't have to call it that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I didn't have to prep him.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I didn't have to give him a nice talk, pep talk to help him work up the courage.

Mitzi Starkweather:

But that's what we just did.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Because he can exist as he is because no one's told him he's wrong yet.

Host:

He's got such a clean little hard drive.

Host:

Any.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, my God.

Host:

Filled up with malware.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yep.

Host:

I think.

Host:

I think it speaks to this raw portrait course and what you have going on, the focus on just being there in the act of creation with somebody, sharing the moment, being present.

Host:

You know, you'd mentioned that we're so used to seeing pictures of ourselves, but those pictures are always, again, taken conditionally.

Host:

Let me take this picture, but let me also throw a filter on it.

Host:

Let me make sure I take seven of them so that I have the good one right.

Host:

And so there's conditions on everything.

Host:

What I'm noticing is that you live now seems to be, from what I've heard over the past hour, you're living this unconditional life.

Host:

And I love that.

Host:

I love thinking about you that way, because oftentimes I see you and in that moment of comparison, being like, it's because she's executing.

Host:

It's because there's no ex.

Host:

There's no expectations.

Host:

It's because it's unconditional.

Host:

And it always brings me back to a place of center.

Host:

So whenever I see you doing something big, I'm just so incredibly proud to know who you are and what you've gone through and how you're getting there and how you're doing all of this, because the world needs more of that needs less conditions, more unconditional stuff happening.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Thanks for saying that.

Mitzi Starkweather:

That's really beautiful.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I think, like, my mantra ever since I kind of got the clear with the cancer stuff is I didn't survive cancer to just blank, you know, to just not share this thing that lights me up or to just do this thing because that's what everyone expects or to whatever.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I think it's like, when we can see our life as precious and the time as valuable as it is, like, when we value ourselves and our life and our message and what we have to offer, we're just like, well, how can I just not like, well, then why am I even here?

Mitzi Starkweather:

You know?

Mitzi Starkweather:

So I don't know.

Mitzi Starkweather:

If you need clarity, just sit down and write a list.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, hey, if I find out I have cancer tomorrow, what I want to do.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Oh, yeah.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So, like, something sue said was about productivity.

Mitzi Starkweather:

She's like the best productivity is clarity.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And it's like so many of us just are spinning our wheels all the time to be productive, but we don't have any idea where we're going.

Host:

It's amazing to watch you from afar and knowing you for.

Host:

I really thought we knew each other a year longer than we apparently do watching month over month over month.

Host:

One of the most true and centered people that I see online.

Host:

You're a constant inspiration for me personally, and I know that you are for countless others.

Host:

I cannot tell you what you being here with me today meant, and I appreciate you more than you could possibly know just for being exactly who you are.

Host:

So, Mitzi, thank you so, so, so much for being here and in the effort to not make this a seven hour conversation, I'm going to end this here.

Host:

So maybe we can do a part two at some point.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Absolutely.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And Matt, before we close out, I just want to say thank you for being who you are and at these different events, like from WPPI to workshops, like, it's.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Whenever I see you at these things and I still get social anxiety, I'm still nervous.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, I see you and I'm like, oh, there's a friend.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Like, I can go hang out with him.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And you care.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And you, you are so good at.

Mitzi Starkweather:

I mean, you're a generator.

Mitzi Starkweather:

You generate shit, you make stuff, you speak truth to people, you point things out.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And that is so valuable and like, the value you bring not just from what you create as a person, but also how you uplift our community is so amazing.

Mitzi Starkweather:

So thank you for doing that and for, yeah, being okay.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Just being a a man who can be vulnerable because we need more of those.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I think that that is super cool.

Mitzi Starkweather:

And I am very excited to see what you make next.

Host:

Thank you for saying all of that.

Host:

It's.

Host:

It's a weird space to navigate, as you know.

Host:

Mitzi, thank you.

Host:

Let's talk again soon.

Host:

I don't know if I'll see a WPPI or not, but I'll be there.

Host:

All right.

Host:

We'll catch up on the road at some point.

Host:

Good luck with the shoot with Sue.

Host:

I think that's an amazing accomplishment.

Host:

You're phenomenal at what you do.

Host:

It's going to be a breeze.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Thank you.

Mitzi Starkweather:

All right.

Mitzi Starkweather:

Bye.

Host:

Until next time.

Host:

I'll talk to you later.

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Generator
A podcast about creativity
Join host and Maine portrait photographer Matt Stagliano while he has long, casual conversations with his guests about creativity in art, business, and relationships. We believe that anything you create is worth talking about!
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Matt Stagliano is an internationally awarded and accredited Master portrait photographer, videographer, speaker, mentor and owner of several businesses including Maine's premier portrait studio, Stonetree Creative.